Thursday, February 28, 2008

not another face in the crowd....

It's so sad that we keep cribbing about our problems....think that all bad things happen to us.At least that is what has been my attitude most of the times.Why does it always rains on me?...And why shoudn't i think so?.....After all, for all of us, our problems seem too big as compared to others'.
It is only when when we look around us....that we realise people have bigger problems to tackle with and that our problems are too small in their comparison. was this regular day.....when i had to go to give my exams.The only thing that wasn't regular was the fact that....i wasn't late for college....and wasn't running the 'marathon' to catch the train!......A girl was walking ahead of me.....she looked normal....just like any other college going girl,carrying her bag in front of her(the usual position of the bag while boarding a 'Mumbai local').Fearing that the train might just leave....i hurried and walked past her and got inside.I immediately got a seat..(an achievement by the way!)....This girl sat on the seat in front of me but I hadn't really seen her,I was just aware about her presence.I was too busy with the new headset that I bought a day before.And then as i looked up.....i saw her face.It was partially burnt.It was certainly not a pleasant sight to see....I just coudn't look at was really painful.She had recoverd,it seemed,but the scars on her face were too prominent not to be noticed.
She too was aware of this fact.She was wearing this jacket with a hood.It certainly wasn't cold that morning....but she was wearing the jacket so that she could cover her face with the hood.But it didn't hide her face.Every one could see it....and every one who saw her ,only felt pity for her.No one had the courage to look at the scarred face......but their hearts were filled with sympathy.

She knew how hard it was for people to look at her....she knew it......because she too must have feared looking at herself in the mirror.To dodge those glances that people threw at her....the poor girl was looking down.....How must she be feeling at that moment?...She must have been crying inside given the fact that she had to deal with a situation like this.But she was not...Her face showed all the pain....but it also showed courage.The courage that made her live her life despite the challenges.I really felt sympathy for her.....but i just couldn't gather courage to look at her.I am,usually ,lost listening to music....that day, my hands ,subconsciously, changed the current track and played the 'Hanuman chalisa'.I realised.....or perhaps God himself made me realise...the fact that there are people in this world who have bigger troubles in their lives....mountains to climb,oceans to swim.They deal with their problems....without shedding a tear....with enormous hope and courage..How silly I am when I keep grumbling about trivial things in my life.....always sad about how things going wrong in my life.But there are people who, no matter how big their problems are, face them happily.I felt really grateful,....(grateful like never before) to God for all that he has given me so far....I 've always been surrounded by friends who've always been there for my family which is my pillar of support.I have always got more than I deserved and been luckier than most people.Yet ,i 've always cried for stuff that I didn't have.But the incident made me much i have in my life to thank for,to live for....that my hurdles are nothing as compared to others'....and that if they can overcome them....i certainly can overcome mine.
No matter how bad a situation you may seem to be in....there is always someone whose going through hell....which is a million times worse.
....and as i was lost in this thought....I looked up at her....but she was already gone.....For me,she was just another way in which God chose to teach me a lesson,she was just another person.....but i still wonder how hard it must be for her to look at herself every single deal with the fact that her face was not just another face in the crowd.....


Gentle Whispers said...

I empathise entirely. It is way too easy to wallow in self-pity and not realise how lucky we are to actually have all that we do.

But whenever I find myself doing that, I remember something I read when I was a child, "I cried and cried for more shoes, until I saw a man with no feet."

Brings me crashing back to reality every time.

Btw, you've been tagged.